A Family Affair by Rob Loveless

Author:Rob Loveless [Loveless, Rob]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: NineStar Press, LGBTQIA+, College, new adult, bisexual, gay, jealousy, unrequited love, revenge, holiday season, HFN
Publisher: NineStar Press, LLC
Published: 2020-11-14T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter Ten

“Ow, ow. Look at you, stud,” Sophie teased as Cal got into her car. The two had made plans to go out to the mall that afternoon to complete their Christmas shopping. “It’s only been a week since I’ve seen you, and already you have whiskers—and a new haircut.”

“Ha ha, yeah. What do you think?” Cal asked while he fastened his seat belt.

“I like it a lot,” she complimented as she pulled out of the parking lot and drove toward the mall.

“Thanks.”

“For real, you look hot.”

“That’s good, ’cause I feel like shit,” he admitted.

“Why?” Sophie questioned.

“Well, I hung out with Jacob earlier this week.”

“Good, I’m glad you went out with him again. How did it go?”

“Fine. Actually, it went pretty well—at first,” Cal said. “We went to the movies and…it was nice. We held hands, and I was comfortable with him. And happy. I think I was starting to like him.”

“That’s great,” she exclaimed. “So, why are you feeling shitty?”

“Like I said, I was starting to like him, and he invited me over to his place for a drink. And then we…”

“Then you what?” Sophie prodded, detecting Cal’s hesitation.

“Um—”

“Come on, Cal. We’ve known each other forever. There’s not much you can say that’ll phase me.”

“Okay. We kinda hooked up.”

“Like hooked up or hooked up?”

“He gave me a blowjob.”

“How was it?”

“It was…okay,” Cal replied.

“What’s the problem? Did he use too much teeth or something?” Sophie wondered, unsure of what Cal’s issue was.

“No, it’s nothing Jacob did,” he clarified. “I started thinking about Andrew toward the end of it. And afterward, I felt dirty almost. Like I was screwing over Jacob by letting him blow me when I wasn’t even that into it.”

Sophie remained silent and stared ahead at the road, but Cal saw her bite her lip.

“What?” he questioned.

“Please don’t get mad at me for saying this, but this is what you do?”

“Do you think I’m some kind of man whore? I’ve only been with—”

“No, I don’t think that at all. I know you rarely hook up. What I’m saying is, every time you’ve dated a guy in the past that you could’ve actually liked, you get cold feet. If it starts feeling serious, you find some reason not to like him.”

“I know,” Cal admitted. “But I’m not sure why I do that.”

“That’s not true. We both know why you do that.”

“Because of Andrew,” he muttered.

“Because of Andrew,” Sophie repeated. “I think you might be scared to let yourself like someone more than him. It almost seems like you’re scared of commitment and abandonment.”

“I’m not scared of commitment. I’m scared of committing myself to the wrong person…again,” Cal reasoned. “And it’s not that I’m scared of liking someone more than Andrew. I’m over him. I just get scared that I won’t do better than him.”

“I’ve seen pictures of him online; you’ve dated guys better than him.”

“They seem better than him on paper, but nothing ever feels right. I never get that feeling I had with him,” Cal sighed. “And then I get scared that I’m gonna wake up one day, married to some guy.

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